I am seventeen,living in a harsh world with only one parent, one family, one life, and a millions reasons to keep on living. I love to take photographs, I love to write books, I have wrote two novels before, one I accidently deleted on my computer!It was called Claustrophobia. One is written and SAVED. I wirtten a book of poetry, and working on a romatic novel called The Desperado. I am a born again Christain looking for good friends who have the same intrest as me, I dont care if you send a comment, even if it is life-threatening. (just kidding.)
I am not on my blog much because of the situation of my life, because my mother had sadly passed on Dec. 30'th, 2008. But still, I'll manage some more post, so far I'm doing great!
My breath so tender, wondering in the world of blue, trailing out of the hole of my mouth, seeking truth out of sticky glue. I see a world fallen down to it's knees, to some antichrist I know.....this is the reason that I bleed....tears seeping from within my soul. I know this world, is so full of pain, in the mist of things are snares. I know this world, so much evil you could gain, is a world that Christains are rare. Help me Lord, to rise me up, help me to seek further truth. I need help so desperately, because Satan: you have me glued. Glued to the sin of the world, I know, it's very, very sad. I never thought about what I have now, could be so less than what I had. Sin is nothing more, than a sip of cold beer, fresh taste leaves you so happy, than the aftermath leads you to tears. But the aftermath of this poem that I write, gains in me a spirit.....I know writing this is a gift to my God calling for help, if I listen close, I can hear it. Now i'm so full of contempment, I plead to my God for forgivness. Guess what, he gave it to me.....and the sin in the world.....I can leave all this!!!
A tear seeps from my red eye, unto the land underneath my feet. As I stand in torment in vicious blood, I knew I had to face who I was going to meet. My life now was never what I thought, as I stood then just then, aftermath of every temtation I had faced, each and every bloody sin. Eyes were red with fire, as I gazed the gory beast, standing before me with demons behind him, each one ready for a human feast. "Come, my child, come unto my name, deny the man called Christ, deny his name....." My mind didn't know what to do, I knew this so called God was true, but even though I understood his grace, and knew his face, to deny his name, is just a question I cant place or do. The beast before me suddenly changed, his whole monstrous form turned into a human with a hansome face. All the fire and demons around him, vansihed out of sight, I could hear them screaming into silent, back in the black of night. Suddenly I felt peace with this thing, first a monster, then a humanbeing. He wrappped his arm around me, with a smile of an angel, I felt a precence of comfurt with this man named Satan, a inner feeling untangled. He said with a voice so soft: "My son, please beleive in me, please beleive in my name, if you deny Christ for me, just for me, think of all the peace you can gain...." My mind was still unclear, thinking about the monster that he once had been, thinking if he was telling the truth of enternal peace, enternal peace with him? I knew before this all happened, I knew God was right beside my heart, I knew I could turn to Him for anything, I knew he and me would never be apart. But now my mind is wondering, wondering is this man named Satan is true, I have heard about a place called hell, a place where demons damn truth. Suddenly, outside the cacoon I was in with his arms wrapped around me tight, I felt something above me, smiling down at me with light. I looked up, and far away I could see, was a little man in golden glow, a man of eternity, a man of light. I knew then I was feeling more peace with that little man, than with Satan himself, so then with a smile I eyed the devil, and denied his name to hell. Just then, thinking I could now have more peace in my heart, Satan in rage turned to his monstrous form, demons coming back to me hungry, in a cloudy black storm. Satan jammed me with his green bloody claws, his teeth in roaring along with his eyes, each razor sharp point stabbing my face with a horrible surprise. Demons began nawing on my feet, everyone of them I could hear stomach's grow, each one was enjoying their feast, as then Satan to the night, howled. As pain shot through my whole body, a pain no human should feel, I was thinking then I made a mistake, I should've taken anothing hill. After they chewed off my legs, I cried out to God, just to walk beside him out of hell, but now my legs were both gone, I feel like now i'm being jailed. After five minutes of gory torment, suddenly Satan made his last stab, and then it killed me instantly, I have nothing in my life now compared to what I had. After dreary thoughts swarm my head, my body light as a feather, I opened my eyes suddenly, and now I stood in awe at heaven. After embracing my God with joy, I quickly turned away after I understood, when he wasn't there for me to follow, out of hell after I accepted him like I should. After a comfurting embrace, by those strong heavenly arms, he whispered to my ear: "My son, you are in no harm, because when you were going through torment, like any other person in the world, when you thought you couldn't follow me out of it, and your mind swirled--" I intruppted him by giving him a hug, something no sinner would do. He smiled and hugged me and fisnished his word. "because when you were lost and seeking my footprints, it was then, that I carried you...."
My Next Novel
The moment that changed Jacquelyn Carson’s life started right after she thought her husband, Otto, a legendary painter, was cheating on her, because he’s never around, always chatting on the phone, stuff that drives her crazy. The harsh moment began after she got a phone called saying her husband was murdered. After mourning, the change deepened. In Otto’s will, he left her his massive art gallery in Vermont, and told her to stay five days inside it, day and night, to scrutinize each piece to intensify her knowledge of his love for her. So she did, and it was the last night when she realized that one painting, an image of the place where Otto proposed to her, had a little painted envelope, and tiny words on it saying: “Fine Me.” Jacquelyn, just to do it, went there in real life and sure enough there sat that envelope, and from there, she’s set on a journey of faith in God and a passage of realization of how much Otto loves her. Terror begins right after though, not only is she on a trail of searching for further envelopes and even videos of himself, she’s on a road with Otto’s killer breathing down her neck, the same murderer that they never caught. But something surprises her though, as she gets deeper in the journey Otto has for her, it somehow gives her clues who this killer is and the sad and devastating reason he did it, which leaves a massive change in Jacquelyn’s life forever.